Disaster Mortuary

One thing I am very used to is a quiet mortuary. Generally there’s only a few of us working about, either on our own work or in groups. It only ever gets loud if there is music playing or when we do training with the nurses, but we have control over the scenarios and what is happening. On Thursday, it felt very chaotic even though it was a very organised exercise being performed, it was just not being performed by our team. We had a big group of police staff and members of the UK DVI team descend on the mortuary for an exercise in disaster management. Let me explain further!

UK DVI are the UK Disaster Victims Identification team. As you might expect, they work to identify the victims of any incident considered a disaster, such recent examples in this country would be the Grenfell Tower fire and the London Bridge terrorist attacks. Not only do they work on disasters in the UK, but they also work alongside or with teams from other countries around the world when disasters occur, particularly when UK nationals are involved.

An excerpt from the UK DVI website explaining themselves in their own words which can be found here

The police staff were divided into teams and worked in these groups to practice recording details and taking evidence from the deceased of a mock incident. This involved not only the staff wearing full protective equipment as in they had shoe covers, Tyvek suits, face masks and gloves taped to the sleeves, but they also set up our post-mortem room in the style that they would use with individual stations set up for each victim.

A glimpse of our post-mortem room where you can see three of our four stations and the observation gallery at the back of the room

From my perspective, which was observing the entire thing and giving assistance where it was needed, the most odd thing about the whole exercise was that the victims of the mock incident were alive actors who were fully dressed, placed in a body bag with a couple of blankets to lay on and were examined. It is very odd, noted by all the mortuary staff, to see someone lying on a post-mortem table and observe their chest rising and falling as they breathe. One even had a coughing fit at one point!

The teams practiced taking the evidence they needed, in this case taking photographs of the victims and removing their belongings and clothes to be placed in evidence bags. They also went through the paperwork they would need to fill out, the team split into ‘clean’ members who were completing the paperwork side of things and the ‘dirty’ members who were handling the tools and the victims themselves.

I feel very lucky to have been able to witness this exercise being completed and I hope I have taken away correct information to describe the above! In the event of a disaster near to our location, we would become the disaster mortuary for this purpose. Both the other trainee and myself agree that while it would be horrible and we don’t want anyone to go through it, it would be fascinating to see an incident in progress from the mortuary side of things.

One very odd thing, in all honesty when all the police staff were dressed up in their protective gear it really reminded me of that scene at the beginning of Hot Fuzz where Simon Pegg’s character is trying to find his SOCO (Scene of Crime Officer) girlfriend in a sea of people dressed the same. While laughing at this comparison in my head I recognised a pair of eyes peeking through below the hood of a Tyvek suit. Turns out it was a friend from a long time ago that I haven’t seen for about a decade! We had a great catch up afterwards and it was brilliant to see them, it’s so funny how life plays out sometimes.

Aforementioned scene from shot Fuzz, the girlfriend or ex-girlfriend actually played by Cate Blanchett in a little known cameo!

Still one very exciting thing to happen this week that I am also very nervous about. I will announce what is happening once it’s complete and I’m happy to share. If you have any questions about the above, please do get in touch!

MG x

Death Anxiety

I finally feel back in full swing and like I can handle the year ahead whatever it may throw in my direction. It’s only taken me over two weeks to get that New Year feeling. As promised, I would like to update you all on the goings on for the first half of this week, especially when there are some more exciting things left to happen.

On Sunday, Rachel and I hosted an event which I originally called ‘Death In The Afternoon’ but I may have to change due to a very popular podcast of the same name having been released since I decided on it. This has been a while in the making, trying to host an event similar to Death Cafe but at the weekend and in a much more relaxed style. It was at my house and all I asked was that attendees supplied the cake and I would supply the tea. I trialled this with some close friends and we played the Death Deck game that I have mentioned before. I think it was an absolute success and I hope those who came would agree, we laughed and had some excellent discussions about various aspects of death. I learnt some very insightful things about my friends too!

 

Improvising necessary when you only get two of some of your letters with your lightbox

Amazing cakes including the gravestones made by my friend Alison!

Yesterday was our monthly Death Cafe at The Sweet Rose Cakery in Upminster. I expected the numbers to be low due to the weather and the time of the year, however we also had the added factor of half the town being closed for gas works and all the buses on divert! All of that aside, we had a small but very cheery group of people get together and although we certainly went off on far more tangents than normal we had some interesting topics. Rather poignantly, the topic of death anxiety came up and I thought it was something to discuss further.

We talked about death anxiety, originally in relation to our own worrying about loved ones and imagining their deaths when we rationally know that’s not what has happened. I know I am guilty of this myself, my other half goes to work on a motorbike every day and if he hasn’t text me by midday I do start to get quite panicky that something has happened. My Mum made a very good point that this is a symptom of having a mobile phone, when she and Dad were first together they didn’t have them and he went to work with most days no contact until he came home. I guess the constant contact we have with people can be problematic in many ways but this is a big one.

In general, those that attended who were younger then went on to a conversation about Facebook and social media. It was clear that we are of a generation where communication comes very easy when we want it, but it comes with many disadvantages too. We might panic when we think we are being ignored, we could be the victim of trolls, and we worry about what has happened when communication doesn’t happen. We discussed worrying about our own deaths, our loved ones deaths and general anxiety around this. I can’t comment for everyone but I know that I have worried, even before I had my job it is important to note, on numerous occasions about death. I’m prone to worrying about my own death if I feel unwell, or at least it does cross my mind. Part of my reasoning for doing and liking my job is it’s almost like an immersion therapy. Surround yourself with something you’re naturally scared of and it becomes familiar and less scary.

A delightful bitmoji image I found once!

Something that also came from the (probably soon to be renamed) Death In The Afternoon was the comment from one friend that ‘Well, Death is just so final’. We all laughed in the obvious nature of this, but actually I think that’s the main reason for the anxiety around it. There’s no going back. There’s often nothing that can be done. It’s understandable why it’s scary and causes anxiety because it removes any control we have, and I think most of us do like to have control. Maybe by working in death I feel like I’m regaining some of that control.

Big day tomorrow and an interesting weekend coming up. I’m glad I could get this in today and hope you’re all having a good week so far!

MG x

2019 (Attempt Number Three)

Those keeping up with my life, and I don’t blame you if you haven’t because it’s fairly boring at the moment, will know that I spent all of the last week in bed after waking up in the early hours of Monday morning with the winter vomiting virus that seems to be doing the rounds at the moment. I won’t go on about it for long, only that I learnt something very interesting while googling from my sick bed. Having a form of vomiting bug can make you lactose intolerant for a period of up to three days due to the imbalance of bacteria in your stomach. I discovered this the hard way when craving a cup of tea and it made me sick again, tried switching to soya milk and it worked a treat. Basically, a virus wiping out your whole system can end up causing your stomach to be unable to process dairy, hence why they always say you should have dry toast or similar to start with. Or a good way to inadvertently try Veganuary without realising.

As the only things that visited me while sick, an incredible amount of cat photos were taken in the last week. Also googled ‘can cats catch norovirus’ to which the answer is no!

However I am now feeling more human, stronger and more positive than I have done in a while. It’s only taken me 11 days into the new year to sort myself out. Just as well really, when next week there’s a few things going on that I really don’t want to miss.

To start with, this weekend I am trialling a new concept for an idea I had last year which I will update you all on soon. Tuesday next week (15th January) is the first Upminster Death Cafe of 2019 which I am very much looking forward to and, although I fear it will be a little quieter than normal owing to the time of year, I can’t wait to see all the familiar faces or any new faces that might appear.

Next Thursday at work we have an exciting day lined up which I will also be blogging about once it has happened, then next weekend I have something hugely exciting hopefully happening that I can’t wait to tell you all about. So, for now, apologies for being so secretive but I cannot guarantee everything will either happen, go to plan or that I will describe it effectively until I know more. Rest assured I am blocking out the following week, primarily to rest and recover from my busy week, but secondly to blog about it all.

That’s all from me this week unfortunately. It’s hard to stomach going from such a quiet week to an incredibly busy one (no pun intended) but bear with me. I hope you’ve all had a much more successful 2019 than me so far!

MG x

New Year Burn Out

I won’t dwell on this for long, but I decided to check in with everyone to just say Happy New Year and I hope all is going well so far for 2019. Personally, not had the best start I could hope for but I’m feeling a lot better than I did on New Year’s Day evening luckily.

New Year’s Day had a wonderful sunset however!

I think a combination of festive pressures put upon me partly by other people but mainly myself, contributed towards a bit of a hopeless feeling. I experienced a massive bout of insomnia which affected my work, which mutated into a fear of not sleeping, that then became the reason why I wasn’t sleeping. I had a couple of major things in my life go awry towards the end of last year that I thought I could cope with. It just turns out that while I was coping with the big stuff, I was not coping with a lot of the smaller things like managing a social diary or, very simply, keeping on top of my washing (having clean clothes was a big worry for me at 3am for some strange reason).

I stumbled across this Moomin cartoon which made me smile, too often I am like Pimple (but not about jam)

Sometimes the pressures and strains of life can get too much. I think this is why things like ‘Self Care’ and ‘Mindfulness’ are so popular now. I worry that they are seen as trendy and just a bandwagon to be jumped on, but I never for one second think that. I honestly believe that taking time for yourself is almost more important than eating the right foods and doing exercise, or at least should be the priority. Mainly because if your mental state isn’t in the best place, nothing else will really work out.

Without getting too bogged down in non-mortuary related things, I can honestly say that due to not being at work there isn’t much else to say! I worked a few hours today, the opportunity came up and my manager asked if I would like to go in. I was pleased to be asked, I find going back after a bout of illness, especially poor mental health, incredibly daunting. I would probably end up back in a pattern of not sleeping and worrying. The fact I went in today and saw some colleagues, did some work and it all went fine, has relieved a huge pressure in my mind about tomorrow morning.

We can so easily burn ourselves out it’s unreal. However always remember we’re only human. We’re only flesh and blood and the things that make us who we are. Burning out, or not being able to cope, is nothing to be ashamed of or afraid of. By talking about it openly, I help myself and I hope I help others who may be going through a similar situation.

MG x

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